Urk. It always yanks my head around and confuses me.

This explains a lot of my anger.. But when you see somebody else angry you just don’t realize it could be because of something they care about.

Lololl. Wish it wasn’t like this. But at some point, it will be.

I feel like this when I’m lost.. I’ve been very lost recently.

rebellioustroll:

shugomewmermeid:

they get worse when i do lil’ animations

goddammit, me too.

i-wanna-be-weightless:

randomostrichchocolates:

4 million and counting

5 million

This should get to 10 million, come on people.

No, guys seriously. I’m not a homophobic. Hell, I love gay people but this is just stupid. Disney movies are based off the original…

It hurts. All I have are the memories but they aren’t in my head like they used to be. The only way for me to stop hurting is to forget… But you won’t remember how good it felt. When I’m in the car and see places where we’ve been, I cry. Nd some things we’ve been happy together like when I see myself on your back while you run. Those are harder to remember how I was feeling… Because now I’m rejected. He doesn’t want that anymore.. And because I can’t remember those times, all I feel is violated. I wish I was never touched. I never want to have this ever again. You’ve given up on me for a while. All I should get in my stupid head.. is that if he doesn’t show affection in other ways than touching you, or lie about him doings things for you, maybe it wasn’t what you wanted it to be.

At this point.. So many people are angry. A person would be.. I guess If I should be angry.. Then why aren’t I? My heart became shattered into pieces.. Yet it’s still in your hands. If I should only be angry, then why am I crying instead? I feel violated. I wanted something.. But I can’t tell if you couldn’t give them to me, or you just didn’t. I know I’m not ready to have a bf or anything.. but I did. I had my first experience and the promises broke like many other people’s.. I still have promises left but, to know you said the promises were naive.. And that u shudnt have made them.. It sucks to be the one that holds promises closer to heart. You’ve made me feel so happy, but now I feel like shit. I feel ugly, untalented, and not worth a guys time. The feeling I feel the most now is bitter. I was a girl thats rly a guy inside. Then you turned me into a girl.. So I lost myself.

Mah eye is infected. yucky. I kinda never liked my eyes…but now my right is a lil different color than my left eye >_<. i feel real weird coz.. weird things happen to weird people i guess. People like to ask me why im wearing sunglasses in school the whole week.. sometimes sassy, but i like to smile nd keep telling them why. Some parts of life suck because maybe life loses excitement and interest, even though it can always be exciting, but you have to make it that way. I think I lost coz i couldn’t do that, especially with someone that changed me forever. I didn’t reach one of my goals, and I couldn’t keep a promise… more than one I guess. I ofcourse still have the one true promise that matters to me. Promises break…but atleast there’s just one left. It’s hard to move on, but moving on makes life easier. But I still don’t want to. I want to move on, but by using what we had and make it stronger.. now the only thing i’m allowed to do is wait. Now i have to sit back and watch for possibly forever, just because he was right. You can’t see the future. But i always say that you might not be able to foresee it, but you can make your own future.. No one has to be shallow or sad… but it depends on whether or not you chose to. it sucks to be the one to do the right thing. urgh. idk wth im doing.. idk what to do when times like this come or where to go.. even though i can sure act like i do…maybe. i hate having to remember and look back on something that felt good, and not knowing if I’ll have something like that again. i dont want him to tell me theres so many other people, because there’s only one of him. i hate when my brother’s right and i’m wrong…eh.. hate’s such a strong word, but I don’t feel like I hate anything at all. I never did. I said I hated though once.. that’s coz i was pmsing for sure. lol… i confess to being a complete bitch when i’m pmsing:/ I’m so sorry.. for everything too. Apperantly guys and integrity don’t go well together.. in my eyes atleast. I’ve never felt so much like I’m missing something. But whenever I stooped way down instead of achieving something I wanted so bad to achieve, I feel like I not good enough for anything again. Dancing? I suck. I stopped dancing… I kind of never focused on it when i got something else that made my heart beat. Plus, I could never dance in front of people that I’m not fully comfortable with… it sucks. :L. I won’t be nervous one day… One day I’ll be strong, and stay that way.

When time makes changes, and it doesn’t work out the way you wished, it feels like crap. I’m not gonna lie. Maybe this isn’t me being so positive atm, but I’d like to get off my ass and stand up for my self. I cried so hard that my right eye is as swollen as when I got hit by a car. Someone told me I deserve better. They told me “I know you’re defending him because youve been together so long and don’t know what it feels like without him, but I think you deserve better.” She was right… Guys always like things that are easy…. He doesn’t care about me anymore… I don’t know what I’m thinking to keep working at it after he pushes me down.. This is the third time. The third time we became apart again… But the times he said he doesn’t care anymore are countless. But I thought it became happy again. Like I know that he cares about me. Turns out he pretended to.. Said he did it for me.. Don’t lie to someone and pretend you care about them.. You did nothing to save this. Don’t tell me to stop whining anymore.., we were supposed to teach is each other how to be good to each other.. But you never listened to my cries. Why can’t guys know better? Some guys know how to treat a girl right.. But many don’t. When a girl isn’t perfect and doesnt do everything you wish. Like she doesn’t stop complaining when you never asked her to hang out and go on a date for a year and four months… You just never listened and changed. Pretty much just, “this is too hard. I give up now. I’ll leave it up to you. I don’t like making strong decisions” if you don’t want a girl to cry… Don’t treat her as if she’s just a girl. Treat her like a best friend, and don’t disappoint her. If you ever disappoint the girl you have, make it up to her. Never leave her wishing she was somebody that spends better time with you.